Summertime Blues

100 Day Project Day 43

Summertime officially started today, with the loss of an hour as we spring forward. I was actually awake when my phone reset the time at 1am, which just made the whole thing much more of a shock than usual. It’s just an hour, but it really is confusing in ways I can’t quite describe.

I’m feeling the weight of the world today, so many things are overwhelming. Apparently we only have fifteen years until climate change brings societal breakdown. The billionaires have, of course, already started building their underground bunkers, which is nice.

I’m not convinced society isn’t already breaking down, given the way an actual genocide is being undertaken using weapons supplied by us, and people are saying nothing about it because they don’t want to offend their social circles, which is basically supporting it.

Yesterday an American congressman called for an end to aid to Palestinians, and that America should bomb Gaza ‘like Hiroshima and Nagasaki’.

Apparantly we only have fifteen years until societal breakdown, but elected politicians in the most powerful nation on earth aren’t even shy about openly calling for genocide.

Incidentally, I started watching the Netflix documentary on the Cold War last night, and the first episode very much covers what America did there, and not just in Hiroshima and Nagasaki, but also to its own population during tests. This isn’t news, but when you put together all the things above, that’s basically the weight of the world I am talking about.

And a lot of people are just saying nothing, and that’s the part that terrifies me.

Mind you, the idea that society is some sort of functional entity can only really be had by people languishing in privilege. For Palestinians society has not been functional for decades, and certainly in Gaza today, the apocalypse is already happening.

I did work on art today, and in the moment it was a blessing, but reality isn’t very far away.

I did some sketchbook things, and had another session with the portrait I am working on. I feel like I improved a couple of things that were bothering me, and need to move on to the next stage. It could be my mood that is affecting my judgement.

At least I showed up 🙂

It’s Trans Day of Visibility today, and there’s another group of marginalised people who deserve better than what society is subjecting them to.

Til the morn,

Suzanne